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Shame

Shame. Fear.
Powerful, powerful words, and even more powerful emotions.
Mine tie in together.
For the past week shame and fear have worked together and twisted in a dance to promote havoc and emotional pain for me.
I've allowed it.
Do you now why? I have been looking at the world instead of Jesus.
I'm not saying it's a simple answer of a decision of looking up. I have a problem with anxiety that manifests it's way into every aspect of my life every. Single. Day. One problems is resolved and the next fear creeps in. I have no answers for this problem. I only have a Jesus. That loves me  that is for me  that always wants what is best for me. Always wants what is best for you. I need to remember that. So my vow is to take my life up everyday. And remember to lay it down at Christ's feet. That's a struggle. Because I'm still on edge as I write this. But I know this is a process of refinement. A process that involves me to make the decision every day to trust in God rather than my own emotions. To trust in God instead of the world. Trust God not my plans. Trust God.

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