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Whole30 Day22

One thing ill be happy about when the whole30 is done? Not paying as much money to be so analytical about my food. I can find out once and for all what I'm willing to be cheap for and what I'm not. I'm glad my cupboard of clean eats has grown and I'm grateful I'm "covered" for my last 8/9 days  I'm grateful I've cleaned up my diet and I'm grateful I've found even more recipes and tricks. I am in shock that I've come this far and I've actually beaten my sugar demon to the ground. If he ever rears his ugly head again, I know what to do. Only next time maybe it will only be a whole 7 or 15 or 20. 
And can include foods I do not have issues with. 
I'm really happy I did this. I have 8 more days but I feel better, my skin is clearer, and coming out of depression is so much easier. My moods aren't perfect but they're more level and I don't get nearly as much pain. If say this was a success. Ill do a real recap when I'm on my final 30 day. 
Breakfast was a really good sweet potato hash with bell peppers onion and 3 beautifully fried eggs. I made it yesterday to have this am :)
Didn't get a picture but I did snap one of this gem:
Pure pleasure. 1/4 caffeinated coffee, the rest decaf, a couple spoonfuls of coconut milk. And some strawberries and banana.  I was happy to start my day with this. 
Lunch was pumpkin chili and I'm sad because I am out. 
Then carrots and guac from a whole avacado. Yum. 
Still could eat a cow. But tamed a bit ;)
So for a snack I had a Lara bar because I thought it would be perfect to fill me up.... Which was a ridiculous notion considering how hungry I am today. I'm hoping my body really needs all these calories it's craving! After the whole30 I'm gonna calculate a typical day for me on whole foods just out of curiosity. When I still wasn't satiated I discovered the most amazing snack ever. And I'm thinking it may be my newest "indulgence" 
I've now had plenty of fruit today and this almost saddens me but. Oh. My. Gosh. It tastes like some kind of crazy cupcake concoction or something. Also? I'm finally full. 
Lately i keep seeing people post about flavored protein powders or concoctions with lots of artificial ingredients and all I can think is that my taste pallet has changed so much in 30 days that the simplist things taste amazing to me. I have trouble believing I'm not eating something bad for me. Just like with my coconut butter discovery, I don't want this to change.  Maybe a lot more can be left out of my diet than I thought....
I was (finally) fine until dinner. Which was carnitas with veggies and romaine lettuce, salsa, and guac. Still hungry so I had carrots with some more guac. 

Now that its night I always rethink my food thought process. I want comfort. I want wine and i want ice cream. 
I'm hoping to just be able to keep my willpower going strong enough to push through without those things. Make sure they're occasional. I mean, I still have 8 more days ....


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