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Whole30 Day20

So glad I have a commitment not to eat junk right now. I'm hungry. And emotional. Horrible combo.
Breakfast was one egg, 1/3 an avocado, bell peppers with onion, leftover turkey and berries with a small banana. 
After church I was starving again but needed to run some errands so I grabbed a Lara bar and kombucha. 

Focusing on water intake today. 

I may or may not have made a few deviled eggs today. They were whole30 friendly. 

Lunch was more leftovers then a snack of a baby food pouch with squash later on. 
Dinner was amazing because I just got tired of my foods. So I get elaborate 

Went for a short walk today. And prepped some egg muffins for me and the hubs :)

I feel like I'm ready to be set free into the world but logically know it'll do me good to at least get the next ten/eleven days in before I re-introduce things. I can't see wanting to go back to the way I was eating, though. Not for the way I know my body can feel look and function now. 
My skin is disappointing me. To be honest the best thing is I don't think I've gotten one new pimple. The bad news is my face has scaring(purple marks) and stubborn pre-existing acne that just isn't moving. A lot of it has come to a head, looking like a breakout, but I know it was already there just not nearly as noticeable. Basically I feel the difference and don't see it so much. The mornings look good and by nightfall I feel like every blemish is magnified. Which makes me curious of I could find the culprit of my breakouts if cutting that out would eventually give me clear skin. Just longer than 30 days. 
Which makes me want to wait longer to reintroduce things but I'm not sure I'm that patient. 
I have to say as much as I've thrived on it, I have gotten frustrated with not licking the pb spoon or having bacon. 
It's been fun to never eat the crap I know will make me feel bad and not feeling like I need to. 
Also: it's really opened my eyes to how I emotionally deal with food. 





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