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Whole30 Day16: November 2013

Every day I write a new number I get a little more excited. Not because its closer to being over, but knowing I've gotten this far. It's getting tough not to take random bites of food from things I'm making for other people. Not because I want it but because my brain is going to default which was taking bites and licks of leftover from the kid's - and my husband's - food. It's good I'm getting out of the habit of doing it because like I stated: I don't really want it. I'm not missing a thing by not tasting it. I know what it tastes like. Not that great.
I've finally entered the realm where breakfast does not have to be breakfast food. Pumpkin chili a friend sent me the recipe for. Everything about it is good. Coconut milk. Pumpkin. Ground turkey. Carrots even. And green peppers. So much good all in one dish. I'm in love. 
(Some of the most tasty food looks the grossest) the ground meat gave me a bit of acid reflux but that's not too new. It's just more intense without starchy foods to drown it out. 
Been feeling "itchy" or "tingly" all over on the inside of my skin not outside for days now. Wondering if its a slight reaction or a hormone thing. Waiting to see if it dissapates. If not. I start cutting out foods. Or adding. :) I have a suspicion I need to get more red meat in :) :) 

Had to snap this pic before I ate it all! My hunger creeped up on me...
I had an afternoon snack of kombucha and A Lara bar because I knew I'd be at the gym during dinner time. 
Dinner was chicken tortilla-less soup. 
I was craving carbs so I cooked up a little sweet potato to go along with it. 
Today was back squats and cleans.... 
Of course later I finished it all up with some coconut butter. Because I needed a fat. :) and because its delicious. 
I don't want to go back to a world where coconut butter isn't magical.... 


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