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Whole30 Day 5: November 2013

Welcome to day 5. I woke up feeling better about my position in the whole30. I had an emotional night last night. For a second I wanted cookies and ice cream. Or to go swimming in a tub of whip cream ;) but it passed as SOON as I made the decision that I was NOT going to. That I was staying dedicated. I stuck to my plan and I had some REAL food even though it wasn't fancy(sometimes its just for fuel!) and I cleaned. And I took a bath.
I'm not hungry this morning, but the creators of whole30 say that it will happen, it has to do with metabolism, and to eat anyway. I'm stalling because none of my favorite veggies are in the house ;) but I'm getting there. 
I feel stronger. 
That may sound silly but when you understand the hold food has had on me for so long now! As if I had no control! And I'm having a hard time but I am capable of things I didn't realize. 
God is amazing. 

2:13- I feel a little tired and bloated today.but the normal kind. Nothing I have nt been going through.  Part of me thinks it would be a good idea to take my whole 30 to a whole sixty to see how food intake effects my second cycle. I need to know how much food plays a roll into my painful cycles and mood swings. The other part of me thinks that I need to wait to see on day 30 how I feel all together. :)
The waves of cravings come and go. Picturing chicken helps :) 
Bday dinner for my dad tonight then cake & ice cream. Guess who is going to eat almond butter if they're hungry when the cake comes out? :)

I completely forgot to take a picture of my salad at the pizza place, but it was boring as well. I brought spinach and avocado to put on it but forgot them in the car. So I had my veggies and grilled chicken with oil&vin dressing then when we left a portion of an avocado was kind of my dessert. 


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