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Whole30 day 1 and peak 313 living and active challenge week 3 (late posting of a blog written on 10/13)

It's officially. I'm all in. I went to bed without sweets last night. By the grace of God and God only. Because I don't remember the last time I did that.
I even looked for cookies.
Something about the cookie container being empty (and still in the cabinet?) And the energy I finally had to clean for the first time in months made me not want to ruin the flow with junk that was going to zap my energy and mess up my even flowing mood...
So I knew I had wanted to start in the morning. But that first night without junk to eat is a huge hurdle for me. The whole week will be challenging, but I'm in. I'll be going shopping on Sunday to celebrate. Just some pants that fit or a nice sweater for the season. Pretty excited about that.
The peak 313 living and active challenge has really helped spurred this along. I have to admit that my "workouts" this past week consisted of long walks with my dog and the occasional jog/walk to wear her out. But I am accepting the season I am in right now and just being satisfied with the fact that I am being active on some level. It's Impotant, as are the foods I take in.
So I made a chart that explains all the ailments I'd like to try and improve with eating well all the time. Beside that list I wrote the foods that will help those problems and the things that probably cause those problems. This outline is the same for the whole30. The ailments are mine. It helps when I want some ice cream to see this big list on the fridge of reasons why I want to be aware of what I am puting into my body.
Beside this make shift health poster I made is another paper with ideas for meals. Things I already have and can easily make or grab.
My fridge is filled with healthy foods and I have disposed of any junk that I know wasn't being put to use anyway.
I'll be skipping my kids cake this weekend. Buy I've already had cupcakes with her as a family and I will be the hostess of the party. I feel completely unguilty about this. And No one else has to know. It's amazing how much judgement is involved with food choices, and how much people try to force their beliefs, and their standards, and their own issues with food onto you... This is a very freeing experience, because I am owning this. This is my journey. Not Yours.

Tonight I actually took out the ice cream container and sniffed it! #confessionsofawhole30er

But I ate these things instead:






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