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Whole30 day18: November 2013

Whoa. Almost to 20. And 20 is pretty far to me. This is how my brain works.
My foods are better than ever 
But
I am feeling a little "fluffy". 
It feels like bloat so I'm thinking ill stay back from boiled eggs and maybe even almond butter and coconut butter and excessive fruits for a few days. 
I question all those as culprits. 
Once again, though, it could just be a "cycle" thing. 
I am woman hear me roar?
So this morning I had one egg(fried) some leftover guac, thin steak, banana and strawberries and onions stir fry style in coconut oil. 


I'm on my second (smaller) cup of coffee with a mug of water in between and going to work out around noon. 
I'm super excited about not missing a beat with my workouts because I didn't eat all the usual thanksgiving food guilts yesterday. This may be something I stick to. Not regularly eating this stuff is pretty nice. 
But I gotta say it will be nice to make(and eat) 7 layer bars (paleo style) for Christmas this year. 
There are some things I may just not eat again. Not on purpose anyways. 
Dairy? i don't miss it. 
Workout went decent. Left starving and had a cocnut cream Lara bar. (Maybe ill cut out everything else before I cut out coconut ;)
Had a later lunch:
Leftover turkey with random veggies from the fridge. Cooked up some sweet potatoes. And missing my deviled eggs. 
Dinner was late because we ventured into shopping world. The last thing I felt like was leftovers. So I split a Lara bar with one of the girls around dinner then on the way home picked up some chipotle. 
Later i Had a few too many raisins so I gave the rest to the girls and won't buy more for a while. 
Coconut butter may be getting a time out as well. 
Keep having crazy dreams about different things. Mostly eating off plan.



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