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Whole30: Day 10: November 2013

Double digits. Yeah buddy.
That was a joke. I have no enthusiasm, energy, or even much of a brain today. Yesterday I was dizzy all day, today I'm just lacking energy. Mostly mental I think. My body feels great right now. I'm still having trouble getting hungry. But then when I start eating I'm suddenly wolfing it down because I had no idea I was hungry. I guess my body is adjusting. Especially with the difference of cravings vs. hunger. My meals have been boring. They're good most of the one I just don't have a lot of time or money to make them elaborate and I just go with the flow. 
(I ate my berries and bananas before I could get a picture.) also, I forgot a fat. I realized when I felt unsatisfied a couple hours later. So I had some avacado :)
I also had a Lara bar pre workout cuz I had breakfast too late and wasn't hungry for lunch and didnt want to put something heavy on my stomach pre workout. Then it was only a couple hours until dinner so I only had another food pouch post workout. Not perfectly on point nutritionally but at least it was all clean food. Dinner was chicken Alfredo made with speghetti squash and delicata squash, coconut milk, chicken thighs and spices. I forgot a picture there. I was hungry :)
It was hard to not eat chips or ice cream or anything for some reason at night. I eventually caved in a sense and got myself a small spoonful of coconut butter. Which is allowed on whole30 but i avoid trying to feed my sugar demon. When I get very tired its difficult. But in the morning I feel physically and mentally like a million bucks. Ready to take on the day. It's worth the resisting. Maybe one day I won't feel like that at night....


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