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Off day. But not an OFF day.

Last night I didn't sleep well.

I ate great foods all day,  had a great WOD that evening, and even made sure my sink was shining before I headed to bed. Unfortunately, in life, sometimes circumstances arise to make everything not go as perfectly planned as you'd like.

My goal is to learn to not let those throw me off track, which is what I have suspected has been happening until now.

Let me note:

  • I am tired from lack of sleep, and a restless sleep.
  • I had a PB&J last night on wheat bread one of the times I woke up.
  • I Had a very strenuous work out yesterday. I am very sore.
  • I am bloated today
  • My head is spinning.
  • I had a frustrating morning.
I could keep going. But the point of this post is honestly not to complain. It is to prove to myself and anyone else who may need it, that you don't need to use food to cope. My go-to is cupcakes, bread, ice cream, ect... and I do want those things, but I stop every time I'm about to.

I keep remembering what it feels like when I eat a lot of that stuff. And how when I eat the sugars and breads, the sugars and breads are all I want still. I'm having an "off" day. I'm working hard at work anyway, even though I'm making stupid little mistakes that I normally wouldn't make. I'm going to have an active rest day by going for a bike ride or walk with the kids. I plan to drink a lot of water to help this bloating(which I'm not sure why I have, but that's part of the point of this journey) I'm going out to get sunlight on purpose to get that Vit D naturally, and I am listening to positive books on audio while I work.

One craving I might give in to?


I want it. and I want it bad. and that's okay.. right?

My favorite meal right now is steak with veggies in balsalmic and poached eggs with hollandaise sauce on the side.. mm.

I hope you're staying positive and grounded today as well!


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